Life's a scary place without a best friend.

When you find your best friend, they fill a place in your heart that you never knew was empty. They make you laugh a little louder, smile a little bigger, and live a little better. When I first met my best friend I honestly didn't know she was going to be as important as she is to me. She understands me when I say forget it, she waits forever when I say just a minute, she stays when I say leave me alone, and asks me whats wrong before I even feel down. She knows everything about me and loves me anyway. She can tell me things that I don't want to tell myself. She gets me through my ups and my downs, my good and bad days, and everything in between. She knows me better than I know myself. She is someone who is just always there for me and I am so grateful. She is the only person that understands our conversations and why touch my body is the best song ever. I love her with all of my heart and I'm glad she is a part of my life. Hooray for best friends! (:

6 years and counting.

Please stay in my life forever because you are one of the best things to have ever happened to me.





You're just jealous because we act stupid in public and people still love us.

I roll with the best and nothing less. (:





I used to be normal until I met my best friend. ;)





Your best friend is like your favorite bra; close to the heart, tight like a hug, and there for support.





Best Friend: Brightens Your Life After You've Been Through A Storm.

Hold onto your best friend, because I bet in an entire lifetime, you won't find anybody else like them. (:

headphones in the ears kind of day.

Music will be my boyfriend forever and ever.

It seems like the whole world wants to talk to me when I'm wearing my headphones.

Ever want to answer every question with a middle finger? That's kinda where I'm at today.

Love is fragile.

Dear heart, stop getting involved. Your job is to pump blood only.

In the end it's you, and only you.

I'm an artist; I paint on a smile. I'm an actress; I hold back tears. I'm a doctor; trying to fix a broken heart.

Games will be played, hearts will be broken, tears will fall, people will change, and rumors will be spread. But life always goes on.

Falling for someone is easy. Picking yourself back up is hard.

Don't put your heart in someone's hands until you're sure that they know how to hold it.

The most painful goodbyes are the ones never said, but the heart already knows it's over.

Just remember who was by your side when everyone else left.

Never lie to people.. because the people you are able to lie to are the people who trust you.

It makes me smile to know that at one point in time, you used to be mine.

It seems like the hardest thing to do, but you have to forget about the person who forgot about you...

One of the best feeling in the world is when you'r hugging the person you love and they hug you back even tighter.

Don't let loneliness drive you back into the arms of someone who you know doesn't give a damn about you.

I would rather have the truth than a thousand lies, the truth may hurt but lies will destroy you.

Sometime you have to let go to see.......... if anything was really hanging on to.

I know there are days when you feel that your heart is broken again; Because instead of walking forward, you hurt yourself by looking back.

Try not to care too much. Then you can't be disappointed.

Sometimes you have to be your own hero because the people you can't live without... can live without you.

I may have trust issues. But some people seem to have an issue with the responsibility of being trusted.

If you start to miss me, remember that I didn't walk away. You let me go.

Love doesn't hurt. Lying, cheating, and screwing with people's feelings hurts...

The worst feeling in the world is when you know you're losing someone and there's nothing that you can do to prevent being replaced.

Choose the guy who takes you to his house to meet his parents and not his bedroom.

I will never regret being with you because once upon a time, you were exactly what I needed.

People change for one of two reasons: They have learned a lot or they have been hurt too many times.

Yeah, I'm FINE. (F)alling Apart, (I)nsecure, (N)eeding help, (E)verything's wrong.

You gave me a reason to smile and a reason to cry. You left me one day, with no reason why.

Fake friends are like shadows: always near you at your brightest moments, but nowhere to be seen at your darkest hour.

Once you have feeling for someone they will always be there. You may not like them anymore but you still care.

The greatest gift you can give to someone is your time.

Learn from who you were, appreciate who you've become, carefully invest into who you want to be.

If someone wants to be a part of you life they will be there. Don't bother saving a spot for someone who won't make an effort to stay.

If she's responsible for your smile, be responsible for her heart.

We are just like dominoes... I fall for you, you fall for somebody else.

In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.

Always give a chase. If you're easy to get, you'll be easy to forget.

Life without you is like a sneaker without laces, a geek without braces, asentencewithoutspaces.

The average person tells 4 lies a day or 1460 a year; a total of 87,600 by the age of 60. And the most common lie is: I'm fine.

I never wanted anything, other than to be your everything.

If someone truly loves you, they won't make you feel like you have to constantly fight for their attention.

Don't let something that doesn't matter cause you to lose something that does.

To be happy, sometimes you just have to forget what's gone, appreciate what still remains, and look forward to the good that's coming next.

When a girl is silent, she's either over-thinking, tired of waiting, falling apart, crying inside.... or all of the above.

Best friends are people who make your problems their problems just so you don't have to go through them alone.

Sad thing is, you can still love someone, and be wrong for them.

Remember when you used to stay up all night to just talk to me? Yeah.... I miss that.

Losing trust is like losing your virginity... once you lose it, ain't no getting it back.

If you find love please don't let it go, just don't make the mistake I know.

Memories are the only things that stay the same when everything else changes.

Never underestimate the pain of a person because the truth is everyone is struggling. It's just some people hide it better than others.

Don't let sad memories stop you from being in love again.

Don't be upset. Things will get better. It may be stormy now, but it can't rain forever.

Some people believe that holding on is a sign of great strength. However, there are times when it takes far more strength to let go.

Just Do It. (:

There is only one place to go from being at rock bottom and that is up.

With that being said, that is just what i'm to do. Find the uppity side of life. (:

Life doesn't wait for you to be ready for what is going to happen. It just happens and if you aren't down for the happening well, it leaves you in the dust. haha (: that is exactly where i am, sitting (more like faceplanted) in this dust we call life. When you get knocked to your knees, say a little prayer and you will find the strength to stand up, i did.

And if you are at the end of your rope, tie a knot and hold on for dear life. It gets better. (:
Everyday is a blessing so wake up thanking the Lord for giving you yet another one.

Don't worry and.. BE HAPPY. (:
after all, nobody likes a mr. grumpy gills.

A Lesson in Cheering Yourself Up (:

For Blue Days.

Everybody has blue days.

These are miserable days when you feel lousy, grumpy, lonely, and utterly exhausted.
Days when you feel small and insignificant, when everything seems just out of reach.
You can't rise to the occasion. Just getting started seems impossible.

On blue days you can become paranoid that everyone is out to get you.
You feel frustrated and anxious, which can induce a nail-biting frenzy that can escalate into a triple-chocolate-mud-cake-eating frenzy in the blink of an eye.

On blue days you feel like you're floating in an ocean of sadness.
You're about to burst into tears at any moment and you don't even know why.
Ultimately you feel like you're wandering through life without purpose.
You're not sure how much longer you can hang on, and you feel like shouting,
"Will someone please shoot me!"

It doesn't take much to bring on a blue day.
You might just wake up not feeling or looking your best, find some new wrinkles,
put on a little weight, or get a huge pimple on your nose.
You could forget your date's name or have an embarrassing photograph published.
You might get dumped, divorced, or fired, make a fool of yourself in public,
be afflicted with a demeaning nickname, or just have a plain old bad-hair day.
Maybe work is a pain in the butt. You're under major pressure to fill someone else's shoes, your boss is picking on you, and everyone in the office is driving you crazy.
You might have a splitting headache, or a slipped disk, bad breath, a toothache, chronic gas, dry lips, or a nasty ingrown toenail.
Whatever the reason, you're convinced that someone up there doesn't like you.

Oh what to do, what to dooo?

Well, if you're like most people, you'll hide behind a flimsy belief that everything will sort itself out.
Then you'll spend the rest of your life looking over your shoulder, waiting for everything to go wrong all over again.
All the while becoming crusty and cynical, or a pathetic, sniveling victim.
Until you get so depressed that you lie down and beg the earth to swallow you up,
Or, even worse, you become addicted to Billy Joel songs.

This is crazy, because you're only young once and you're never old twice.
Who knows what fantastic things are in store just around the corner?
After all, the world is full of amazing discoveries, things you can't even imagine now.
There are delicious, happy sniffs, and scrumptious snacks to share.
Hey, you might end up fabulously rich or even become a huge superstar (one day).

Sounds good, doesn't it? But wait, there's more!
There are handstands and games to play, and yoga, and karaoke, and wild crazy bohemian dancing.
But best of all, there's romance.
Which means long dreamy stares, whispering sweet nothings, cuddles, smooches, more smooches, and even more smooches, a frisky love bite or two, and then, well, anything goes.

So how can you find that blissful "just sliding into a hot bubble bath" kind of feeling?
It's easy.
First, stop slinking away from all those nagging issues. It's time to face the music.
Now, just relax. Take some deep breaths (in through the nose and out through the mouth).
Try to meditate if you can.
Or go for a walk to clear your head.
Accept the fact that you'll have to let go of some emotional baggage.
Try seeing things from a different perspective.

Maybe you're actually the one at fault.
If that's the case, be big enough to say you're sorry (it's never too late to do this).
If someone else is doing the wrong thing, stand up tall and say, "That's not right and I won't stand for it!"
Its okay to be forceful. (It's rarely okay to be a bitch though.)

Be proud of who you are, but don't lose the ability to laugh at yourself.
(This is a lot easier when you associate with positive people.)
Live every day as if it were your last, because one day it will be.
Don't be afraid to bite off more than you can chew.
Take big risks. Never hang back. Get out there and go for it.

After all, isn't that what life is all about?
I think so too. (:

Better Late Than Never.

This is just a taste of me that is graduating. :)

So.. i finally took my senior pictures and all that jazz. Graduating is like barely hitting me, no i'm not ready to grow up and get on with life but i am so ready to be done with high school and the drama that goes along with it.

Bigger and Better?

So whats next.. at the end of the summer i move to a little town known as Ephraim. I will be playing softball at Snow College and figuring out how to live with 6 other girls.. joyous.

I guess time will only tell if it is better. (:

Reading. :)

Soo... i have found this new love for reading. It is a good get away that i feel like i need sometimes. It's just a time where i can sit and occupy myself and let my mind get lost in the story. I tend to let my thoughts wander aimlessly and then i start thinking about stuff and stressing myself out... it just needs to stop.

The other day i walked into history and what do you know my friend, Robyn, is reading this book.. the last song. I said to her, "you are seriously reading that? c'mon robyn." she got all defensive and fed me the its a good book line. i didn't buy it for a second. but only for a second.

... long story short she convinced me to read it.

i finished the book in 3 days and absolutely loved it. i wish it were longer. during those 3 days all i wanted to do was read.. so i'm a nerd sometimes, get over it. :) from reading this book i have found i absolutely love reading and am going to do it more often.

tune in next time. :)

Just a Sample.

"Who are you to judge the life i live? I know i'm not perfect and i don't live to be. But, before you start pointing fingers... make sure your hands are clean."

The little things that i love....

Getting my back Scratched!!! :) :)

a fresh pair of kicks. :)

making shirts.

sunshine on a rainy day.

laffy taffy jokes and raspberry ice crystal light!! (:

curling up on the couch and watching movies.

sleeping in. (:

being the good kind of sore.

music that gets your body movin. :)

laughing in the dugout about comical happenings.

pretending to be a creeper.

Gil. :) :)

and.. my best friend. (:

It's been a while. haha :)

yes yes.. i know shocking mac is updating her blog. Get off my back, i've been busy. :)

so.. for my first post back i'm gonna do a little this or that. enjoy.

THIS or THAT

pink or blue?

coke or pepsi?

walk or run?

prep or jock?

jacob or edward?

light or dark?

morning or night?

yoga or pilates?

best or friends?

couch or loveseat?

summer or winter?

call or text?

white or chocolate milk?

all or nothing?

kisses or hugs?

hip hop or country?

left or right?

chicken or beef?

neon or pastel?

hot or cold?

waffles or pancakes?

roses or lillies?

clean or dirty?

sunrise or sunset?

rain or snow?

good or bad?

and for the last one....

Love or Hate?

that's all folks. tune in next time. over and out.

It Takes But One.

He walked with his head down, guarding himself from the cruel world. He never said much and kept to himself. Quiet, content, an outkast at that. He did not want to remove the mask and stand barefaced before the world. Afraid he'd be judged and laughed at too, he kept it a secret and lived right on through.

Short days at school meant long days at home.. for home was hell and corruption was there. Hiding the evidence with his clothes he could not escape the torment and damage. Did his father not love him? Or was it the addict?

She saw him walking through the park one day.. Who were his friends? Why did he act that way? She decided to talk to him and figure him out. After many months of mingling about, they did become friends.. best friends at that. As she found out more about him their friendship grew stronger. They would meet at the benches and talk for a while. They made this a daily routine to converse before dinner.

One day she looked at him with eager eyes and asked, "why me?" he held her hand and whispered in her ear, "because you saw me when I was invisible."

Several weeks later she sat alone at the park. She came to find out he was no longer here. She went to his grave where she sat for a while. There she prayed for forgiveness.. then went on with life. She carries him in her heart and always remembers the boy from the park.

Seasons Greetings :)

Christmas. :) the best holiday of them all. During this time of the year I think that all of us should have a special place in our heart for your family, friends, and loved ones. Find joy in spending time with them. Let them know how much they really mean to you. Be thankful of what you have, don't only think about the things you want or need, and be willing to give. Also, this year I have decided that I am going to try and be as selfless as I ever have been. Everyday I am going to do atleast one thing, one meaningful thing, for someone else. I am not just talking about saying hi to someone in the hall at school or letting someone go at a stop sign even though you have the right of way... I'm talking about one thing that will truly change something in a persons day. It doesn't have to be big and elaborate, just thoughtful. So this holiday season, I am going to make a difference!!